Thursday, January 21, 2016

post exam blues.


This semester is done and now I’m having a floating-like feeling (because seriously, I don’t even plan anything special for this winter break while most of my friends already pack their bag, going somewhere). Well, actually yesterday is quite a mind-shattering day. I’ve never been so insecure about the exam except about this particular subject.

But I had done all the things that I could and if I failed (I wish I’m not) I accept it.  Well, everything happened for a reason.

God know best, even you don’t even know yourself.

 And I would like to start living this moment.

Monday, January 11, 2016

not - too - deep.

Hi, January.

Been a while since all my focus is poured all into the exam mode. Somehow this is one of the major goosebumps I had ever felt but Alhamdulillah somehow I manage to face it well. So far everything had been good, but there is a particular feeling that actually struck me this examination week and it’s the same when I first decided to just go on with STAM and face the exam.

It felt so hopefull but yet fragile and uncertain. it’s when you doubt yourself when you already done the best of you. I admit that I always have that type of insecurity but I manage to go through that easily this time because of one thing.


I know this might sounds cheesy or blehh but it does calm me up.

I decided that i have to do all the best I can and let Allah do His part which is the result and amazingly it just so relieving even though there’re some question in the test that I have no confident at all that it’s acceptable but yet that’s the best I can do.

And if I have to retake the exam I accept that. There’s always hikmah in every cause. And I deeply believe in it.

4 papers to go.